I feel like I am losing my damn mind and falling back into my depression and anxiety especially

I hate being disrespected and that’s what this feels like.

Buckle in for a rant…I’m sorry in advance. I just don’t know what to do.
I live with my fiancé and his family. We moved in a little over a year ago so we could start saving and working on our credit to buy a house. It is his parents, his sister and her husband and two kids, and then us two. We live in the separate pool house that’s actually just his mom’s craft room that we managed to turn into our “studio apartment”. There isn’t a kitchen unfortunately, but that is irrelevant for what I’m writing here about.
Since the whole quarantine has been going on for nearly a month now i feel like I am losing my damn mind and falling back into my depression and anxiety especially since I was laid off. Because we live out in the country good internet is scarce. The pool house is the only place with internet. His sister is a SPED teacher and then the two kids have online school work. That’s fine and I understand their need for the internet. But every morning his sister decides she doesn’t need to knock before entering. I don’t have kids and I have incredible insomnia that makes it hard for me to sleep at night. So I tend to sleep in now that I am jobless. She just barges in and switches on the lights without warning, without knocking, without even a phone call/text to let me know she’s coming over. They unplug the TV so she can plug whatever the hell she needs to plug in in. And they stay in there for upwards of 5 hours. And they come at different times whether it be 8am or 10am or 11, etc.
It is driving me absolutely insane. This morning I asked my fiancé to lock the door before he left for work so they wouldn’t have any choice but to knock…THEY UNLOCKED THE DOOR.
I don’t know what to do but I need my space. I need to be alone. That’s who I am. I need my sleep and it’s difficult for me to come by that. I talked with my mother-in-law and she said that she’ll have my sister-in-law start calling before she comes over.
Also I sleep near naked because it gets hot without central air. Just to push my point further.
Side note: I love my in laws. I really do. They have helped us out so so much and I am grateful. However, I hate being disrespected and that’s what this feels like.

Discussion

Jaimilee M. Kalich
Add a hinge lock to the door. Or speak with your fiance to his parents about it. That’s my advice. Best of luck!

Lexy Nicole
Jaimilee M. Kalich I’ve already spoken to his mom about it and (she is also guilty of having no boundaries) I feel like it’s gonna solve nothing.

Jaimilee M. Kalich
Lexy Nicole Washington oh man, that is horrible.

Nicki Harding Mitchell
Considering I have family that triggers my anxiety…You need your OWN place sis. I know you’re saving but a 1 bedroom apt might be the trick for your anxiety and plus for yall to have personal space. Or everytime they come into the pool house, you go into the main house. I’ll be all in the livingroom eating, on the phone etc. If they’re bothered by it…then ask them may you have the pool house to yourself and your fiance.
Really not too much wiggle room in this situation though because it is the sister property…Good luck 🥰

Lexy Nicole
Nicki Harding Mitchell I literally am gonna cry. This is an argument I have with him all the time. He doesn’t get it. Like I could care less about buying a damn house right now. I need out. People rent all the time and we’ve done it in the past. He’s just so adamant and ugghhhhhh

Nicki Harding Mitchell
Lexy cry sis and let it out. Drink some wine and dance like those people are not around. But puts some earphones in so youre in your own world…hope you feel better soon…msg me if u need someone. I’m calm today 🙂

Lexy Nicole
Nicki Harding Mitchell thank you love
I have gone through so much wine. I’m not sure if I’ll need AA or a gym trainer when this is all over 🤪

Nicki Harding Mitchell
Lexy lol me too. glad to see you laughing…

Lexy Nicole
Nicki Harding Mitchell I called fiancé while he was at work to vent even more. He’s vowed that once this quarantine is lifted we’re dipping out and finding a house to rent. The only worry is we have two dogs but hopefully that will work out.

Lexy Nicole
So I feel a little better for sure

Nicki Harding Mitchell
Lexy God heard your cry sis…Amen! Speak that into existence. Everything will work out.