I suffer so much for not being perfect on the eyes of almost everyone

Suffer so much for not being perfect on the eyes of almost everyone

Please someone tell me we get better, someone tell me it will be okay and I will stop feeling so awful about being alive. No I am not suicidal but I am in incredible pain and afraid I will never be truly happy and such type of existence saddens me.
I know am responsible of feeling like this, and I hate it that I suffer so much for not being perfect on the eyes of almost everyone…
I want a hug, I want to be told that it will be okay.. that it is worth it this life please.


Discussion


Char Vinton
It does! I have been there. And it does get better. Sending a virtual ((hug)).

Maria Janáček
Char thank you

Aaron Dale
It won’t be like this forever. It takes some digging and a lot of learning about one’s self to “feel better”. I feel like there will always be some trace of anxiety always present, but I know for a fact we can all live a happy, fulfilled life without fear and panic. It is definitely obtainable! Keep pushing!!!

Maria Janáček
Aaron Dale really? It’s like a roller coaster but every time the drop is from a higher place

Aaron Dale
Maria Janáček I feel like that roller coaster ride is getting much easier. But it took me a while to identify the real underlying issues to my anxiety (for me it’s my career/finances). It’s weird cause I felt like I wasn’t thinking about it, but deep down, that’s the issue. By simply taking action like applying for jobs, budgeting, etc, I feel better knowing that I’m taking action.

Susan Goodwin Regan
It can definitely get better! I’m proof. I was housebound for over 5 years with anxiety and panic attacks. I finally got on the right meds at the right dose (not benzodiazepines), and I’ve been stable for over two years now. Recovery is possible.

Maria Janáček
Susan Goodwin Regan are you in therapy as well? Or just meds

Susan Goodwin Regan
Maria Janáček after I stabilized, I was in therapy for a year. But now I’m just taking my meds and seeing my psychiatrist every 3 months or so. 🧡

Maria Janáček
Susan Goodwin I have become obsessed about leaving the meds due to their damaging long term side effects… and I feel like if I take them, I am not fighting enough or trying to uncover the truth about my anxiety…

Susan Goodwin Regan
Maria Janáček the science says we have a chemical imbalance in the brain that requires meds to correct. If one had diabetes, you’d need to take insulin to live. Meds saved my life.

Maria Janáček
Susan Goodwin but it’s not just chemical, is it? There’s a trigger or many that’s the root of it all. Due to the way I’m wired I keep thinking medication is bad because of the life shortening side effects , that I should be able to fight it all by myself… I’m sorry I sound whiny but the burden I feel by what I’m programmed to do it’s weighing me down

Susan Goodwin Regan
Maria Janáček again, what if you had diabetes? Would you not take insulin? That would be life shortening if you didn’t. I have had no side effects. I can only say I’ve been on medication for different things for much of my life and I’m a healthy and active 69 year old.

Maria Janáček
Susan Goodwin If I had diabetes, yes I’d take it. I am happy to hear you are healthy and active. I wish I can reach your age and be as healthy ❤️ (I’m 34)

Susan Goodwin Regan
Maria Janáček 🧡

Rob DeGregorio
Things can get better. For me counseling helped.

Josephine Hasfal
It gets better. It will be ok

Jenny Tonhauser
You will be ok! One hour at a time. Not day. Celebrate each hour and breath.

Amethyst De Royal

I am at a similar place. I am sorry it’s this way for you. Reading that others recovered helps give me hope but I am having a hard time connecting to it. It’s so hard and painful and beyond me.
I hope you feel better tho
Thank you for sharing

Maria Janáček
Amethyst I am sorry it’s this way for you also. Today I am feeling a little better… I took my med yesterday, there was no other way. I am having a an appointment with my psychologist tomorrow also. Hugs ❤️

Amethyst De Royal
Maria Janáček I guess I have hope but like you, it’s beyond me at the moment. How are you doing now?

Maria Janáček
Amethyst De Royal Much better, it’s probably just the medication but I am grateful and I am starting to understand that if this is the only way for now, I will need to stick to it. How are you at the moment?

Amethyst De Royal
Maria Janáček what are you taking?

Maria Janáček
Amethyst De Royal Pregabalin 75 mg / day

Amethyst De Royal
Maria Janáček ok.
I am glad it’s working!!!
I talked to a therapist today. He seems nice and has a plan.
I also called the local crisis line and that helped too
Still feeling like to jump out of my skin but I might make it thru the night???
I am so glad for you!

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